Friday, November 8, 2013

A Free Write, From My Soul to Yours

What to do, when it has come for you?

The Kundalini.

Art by Charles Bergquist 

When the time has come for your desires to unfold within themselves, what happens? 

Who stoked your inner fire when the flame has burned higher and higher, taking over houses, spaces, places, until the roar of an emblazoned horizon takes over the totality of your existence?

When the maniacal lover explodes a part of you, you always knew existed, but never knew how to access. Now, you’re not sure if you want to access it. But the time has come anyway, and you must walk through. 

Courage and patience and fierceness and love. How to be so strong, so full, so fiery, how to be so light, so loving, so flowing?

When it’s on, it’s on.

The fever for expression burns within you. The stationary child writhes within, agony as that which you desire is not coming to you in the exact moment. Heart happiness and genuine good vibrations share space with a fiery, frantic anticipation. Every day. Every day. Energy becomes intense, and sometimes it feels like it’s too much to bear. 

All encompassing.

What do you do when you desire something so badly, and it doesn’t take form? What do you do when you know it’s only a matter of patience and divine timing, but you want it now? 

How do you handle the urge for something so much greater than yourself? 


Honour that one day this will seem far away. 

This too shall pass. 

Be present with the humanness of it all. 

Be present with the cosmicness of it all. 

Be grateful for the chance to feel so much, so deeply, so fully, so ravenously, when so many at this time are sleepwalking. 

And channel that furiousity of feeling into projects which have been begging your attention. Do the best you can, with what you have. Be in the energy of that which you desire. Pretend as though it is already happening. Wake up in the morning being grateful for the waves of prosperity that wash over you now. Be grateful for all the golden light in your life. Feel the energy, the vibrations of love before you. Feel the light within you. Honour your space. Honour your timing. Be grateful. Let go of the frantic pace. The clawing, the pulling, the lack. Fill it with love and kindness, tenderness and compassion. Let a new dawn, a new day, come before you now, and live in it’s energy, even when it has not manifested in 3D yet.

Know your power. Trust your feelings. Trust your desires. Do not deem them as wrong, petulant, childish, or foolish. Do not become embarrassed over your quenching for that which you seek. Be in full who you are. Own your emotions, own your feelings. 

Create from this place. Honour the steady rhythm of your soul as it meets the energy of desire. Give thanks for that which you have. That which you desire has already arrived. 

That which you desire has already arrived.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

A Vision of an Angel that Changed Me Forever

My life has taken a lot of turns lately, but moving to Tofino has definitely been the most epic one. 

If you’ve been following my blog for a while, you’ll know that while in Hawaii in March, I broke up with my boyfriend and decided to move to Vancouver Island, but I didn’t know exactly where I wanted to move to. 

On May 5th, I packed up my car with all of my belongings, and headed west, only knowing that I was going to make Kelowna and Victoria pit stops on the quest through BC. 

On September 29th, I finally found my spot and moved into a beautiful new house with 2 of the most awesome girls I could ever ask for. 

The time in between those 2 dates, I spent nomading: camping, staying with friends + family, sometimes sleeping in my car, constantly unaware of what my next move would be, constantly changing my mind, trying to follow my heart, even though I was unsure of what it was saying. 

Finally the storm subsided, prayers manifested, and I’ve been able to relax. I’m now joyfully settling into my new home. I am absolutely IN LOVE with this place, and since being in Tofino, I’ve already had some really interesting experiences. 

The other night, I had a dream. 

In it, I was talking to my ex-boyfriend (which totally needs a new title, he is my soul friend through and through) and felt a deep and all encompassing love in my body. He was asking if I wanted to be with him, and though it felt like a part of me was dying, my truth formed the words ‘No’. 

As they came out of my mouth, it felt like one of the most tragic things I ever had to do, knowing that I was deeply in love with this being, but I had to say no.

There was someone in the other room who I wanted to be with instead. Interestingly enough, I felt like the soul I was speaking to in the dream wasn’t actually my ex-boyfriend, it was someone from a past life I had known long ago - I was experiencing a recall.  

The emotions in this dream were insane. They were more than emotions. They were deep spiritual longings. Upon waking, I was kind of torn up. From the depths, I decided to do a chakra clearing meditation while I was laying down, still between the worlds. 

Upon finishing the meditation, I kept going. I asked that the memories from the dream be cleared. 

Suddenly, an intense amount of emotional pain surged through me and out of my heart. The release was uncontrollable, and I started wailing. Not crying, wailing. I couldn’t even make any noise I was crying so hard. So much pain was in my body as I remembered this soul I said no to. It’s indescribable the amount of emotion that was present. 

As it was leaving, I had a vision that lasted as split second, yet imprinted in my mind with virility. An angel, in the form of a large diamond about 5 feet above my heart appeared. Light shone out of it, and it’s presence was both powerful and peaceful. As this light being was above me, the memory and the emotions shot out of my heart, up into the angel’s diamond. I knew instantly it was taking this from me. Forever healed. Finally ready to come up and out of my system. Finally ready to come home.

And then it was over. Adrenaline still pumped through my veins, but I felt a calm and nurturing energy come over me. 

These type of experiences aren’t necessarily unusual for me, yet this particular experience was unique. Every year that I continue on the spiritual path, I have more and more magical experiences. I see more - ex. angels & auras. I feel more - both pain & pleasure. I understand more and yet I embrace that life is really just an all encompassing mystery. 

If you’re on this path, and sometimes you question it, like we all do from time to time, all I can say to you is: keep going.

This journey is real, magic is alive, and although it seems that sometimes it only presents itself in certain moments, it is with us everyday. 

It is just a matter of when we’re ready for it. 

Just a reminder - today is the last day to sign up for the epic spiritual program that is Flower Child. 

What I just described to you above is an experience associated with the ‘Priestess’. This archetype and very real historical title will be discussed in our New Moon call with Vanessa Codorniu. If you’re really intrigued with this path and feel connected to the mysticism of the priestess, I highly suggest you sign up. Though our greatest path is inward, we would be nowhere without teachers that have come before us to share their wealth of experience. We need each other. I love you. 

xo Beth

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Why I'm Crying at a Computer Screen // + How You Can Help Me

I have a bit of a problem. 

It’s a good kind of problem, but also a devastating kind of problem. 

I got serious beef with chemical cleaning supplies and body products, and it seems everybody uses them. While I love everyone in my life dearly, I often find harsh chemical products in the homes of my loved ones and beyond, and a part of me feels like it dies inside when I see it. No exaggeration. I get really upset and I don’t know what to do about it. So this morning after some chemical dishwashing detergent appeared out of the blue under my counter, I had to get out my computer. I can’t not talk about this. It’s one of the most important choices our generation can make. 

Ok, I’ll start from square one...

I grew up in a ‘normal’ household. Tide, Clorox, Windex, Herbal Essences, Colgate - these were the brands I knew. I didn’t give much thought to them - I really had no idea what was in them, it just wasn’t something I thought about.

I remember one time when I was about 12 or 13, my best friend at the time sprayed Windex in my face as a joke. It was supposed to be funny. It wasn’t. I was shocked that she would compromise my well being by doing that.

Moving on from that, it still didn’t click. I knew Windex to be full of chemicals, and I knew I didn’t want it anywhere near me or my body, but if it was in the bucket of cleaning supplies, it was somehow OK. 

It didn’t click that all of this stuff was going into our air, and down the drain. City filtration systems are unable to filter out most of the chemical residues. It didn’t click that this stuff was making it’s way into our greater world, and on a big scale.

Fast forward about 7 years. I’m in University, and I’m starting to wake up. I’m learning about the tragedies of the food industry, and what big ag (corporate agriculture + massive conventional farming) are doing to the animals, the farmland, their employees, the surrounding landscapes, and the world. And I’m getting really upset. 

I then start to learn about the dead zones of the Mexican Gulf. My life really starts to change. Anger erupts from me, sadness overwhelms me. I’m crying inside. Devastated. Amidst a sea of my old friends who don’t seem to care much, it hasn’t clicked, I reach out to my boyfriend, at that time, the only person in my life who could relate to the absolute devastation a soul could feel at discovering their world is falling apart, and very few people are doing anything about it. Even now, I’m crying, tears shroud the computer screen. I’m still devastated. 

The Gulf of Mexico is currently a waste zone. Runoff from huge corporate farms - pesticides, and unnatural amount of manure from cows who are fed an unnatural diet and antibiotics to cover it up, are flowing down the Mississippi river, along with brand name cleaning supplies, shampoos, and the like. This toxic mix has become too much for the earth + ocean to deal with. The runoff has created a place in the ocean where virtually nothing lives. Nothing. There isn’t enough oxygen to sustain life there anymore, the mix of pesticides, antibiotics, and chemical cleaning supplies has wiped all life out. Everyday this ‘Dead Zone’ as they call it, grows larger. 

And this isn’t the only dead zone in the world. There are many. 

I could go on and on about the things I found in my research. Mass amounts of birds, dolphins, and tons of other animals have been turning up dead. Sometimes all at the same time, all in the same region. Bees. The animals of this planet are dying. They are trying to communicate to us through their sacrifice of life just what our actions are doing.  

What can we do about it? Isn’t it the corporations? Surely just an individual wouldn’t have the power to change this?

But the truth of the matter is that empowered individuals of the world are the ONLY ones who are going to change this. Every time we buy natural, local, and organic, we’re choosing to support our planet. Every time we’re buying from the drugstore or conventional supermarket, we are literally poisoning our oceans. 

To be honest, the ocean doesn’t have much time. We’ve gotta change things fast. We’ve gotta be shouting on the streets. This isn’t about preaching, this is about speaking for those who weren’t given a human voice. 

We are speaking for the whales, the dolphins, the deer, the trees, the bears, the birds and so many more when we choose to buy products that are truly biodegradable and safe for our bodies and our world. 

So speak up folks. Change up your shower products, get rid of all the stuff that’s poisonous under your kitchen sink. Go to the health food store, and ask the staff. What are their favourite natural cleaning supplies? What shampoos do they love? Spend your money on them. It’s important. You can also make your own cleaning supplies + more very easily and affordably. 

The key thing is: Waiting on ‘someone’ to ‘something’ about it just isn’t going to work this time around. WE are the someones, and DAILY ACTIONS are the somethings. 

If you’ve gotten this far, thank you so much for reading this. Deep soul shit, that’s what I call this. But we’ve all got it. This is mine. MUCH LOVE! And thanks for taking action. We need you.

xo Beth

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Why Butter Can Be Good For You // A Conversation with Blossom Apotheke

I am VERY excited to be sharing this interview with my good friend Madeline, founder of Blossom Apotheke, with you sistas today. 

WHY? Because she has a refreshing and in my opinion, very needed, take on nutrition. Some of her philosophies will make you do a double take, causing you to question why our culture is so into mainstream health fads, rather than listening to our spirits and the wisdom of the ancients. (For example, did you know, butter can actually be GOOD for you? Awesome.)

While some would consider Madeline a nutritionist, she calls herself a modern day medicine woman, and I would agree. Madeline is all about reconnecting with our primal self, through both our dietary choices, and our lifestyle. She values the wisdom that comes from our ancestors, and manages to incorporate it in her day to day life with ease.

I must say, Madeline is also a truly divine woman. Although we only met through mutual friends in the last year or so, already she has been with me through one of the hardest periods of my life. While I was sulking and feeling sorry for myself, she had the courage and light heartedness to support me, and nurture me while I came back to myself, and to the truth of the world. And for that, I will be forever grateful.

Enjoy this interview below friends, and let me know what your favourite point is in the comments below!

If you'd like to know more, Madeline is going to be hosting a phone call with myself and the Flower Children, on the Full Moon in November! She'll be giving us a workshop on Traditional Foods for the Female Body.

If you're into the knowledge she shares below, and would like to go deeper, be sure to sign up for Flower Child before October 4th, and come with a list of questions when we meet! We'll go a lot more in depth on the call.

Lots of love, and happy reading!
xo Beth

What are traditional foods?

Traditional foods are the foods that have nourished our ancestors for centuries if not millennia. They are the foods that our great great great grandparents would have eaten before the birth our our industrialized food system. Traditional foods are wild foraged plants and herbs, pasture raised or wild animals , grass fed dairy, fermented foods and drinks such as sauerkraut or kombucha and organic vegetables. Traditional food wisdom trumps modern diet hype and dogma and quite often goes again the convention ‘food pyramid’ nutritional advice.

Some of these foods we’re told not to eat by conventional nutritionists were actually considered sacred by our ancestors because the nutrients would help boost fertility, nourish women in pregnancy and their developing children.

What are your 3 favourite ways to self-care?

1. Dry brushing everyday with essential oils to exfoliate skin, increase lymphatic flow and circulation. When you dry brush your body it improves the complexion of your skin because the lymph is more efficiently moving wastes out.

 2. Bathing in natural hot springs and jumping in cold wild water as often as I can. I always feel the most alive and energized after a cold water dip.

3. Drinking adaptogenic tea everyday to provide immune system support and decrease stress levels. My favourite herbs to have daily in a tea are Chaga, Reishi and Holy Basil.

What are 3 things any woman can add to her diet and see improved results in her health and energy?

Shatavari: Shatavari is a sacred Ayurvedic herb that has been used for millennia . It translates in sanskrit as ‘She who has 100 husbands’! It’s pretty much THE herb for women in all stages of their lives. Taking shatavari balances the hormones, promotes healthy skin, boosts libido and much much more.

Healthy Fats: Fats are important fuel for our body and having the right ones in the right ratios can make all the difference for your health. Eat an abundant amount of coconut oil, organic butter or ghee, fish oil, olive oil and hemp oil. And avoid canola oil and or vegetable oil.

Herbal Nettle Infusion: Nettles are high in Vitamin K1, iron, calcium, magnesium and silica which are all really important nutrients for women’s health. To make a nettle infusion pour 500 ml of boiling water over ½ cup dried nettles in a 500 ml mason jar. Seal with a lid and let it sit for 4 hours or overnight. Strain and enjoy hot or cold.

What inspired you to start Blossom Apotheke?

Apotheke means apothecary in German. I grew up spending my summers at the home of my german grandparents.

Though my grandmother had passed before I was born she left a beautiful garden and orchard that I used to gather herbs and berries from when I was a young girl and make potions and medicines. 

Blossom Apotheke is a platform for my life’s passions of nutrition, herbology and medicine making. I offer nutrition and herbal consults, classes on traditional foods and medicine making and am developing a wildcrafted herbal skincare line.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

I see myself living in a cottage on a piece of land with food forests and herbal gardens. Raising a beautiful family with a beautiful man. Living connected with the cycles of nature. Continuing to deepen my path as a herbalist and medicine women. Making botanical perfumes, elixirs and medicines through Blossom Apotheke. And educating about returning to the sacred in it’s many forms.

What was your favourite piece of information from the interview? Share in the comments below!

Monday, September 16, 2013

Cosmic Ladies, Mystic Dreams

'There is something so powerful when women come together to support each other on their journey, in the hopes and dreams. 

We are healed, we are nurtured, we feel comforted and understood. Moreover, when you share sacred space together you magnify the power of your intentions and you energetically create a web of support for not only your circle of women friends but with women everywhere.' 

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Behind the Scenes at Flower Child

Pouring Sacred Sea Salts into a Chaga Bath Elixer

Flower Child is one of my favourite things right now.

It's a program for goddesses I launched back in April, that's devoted to sending the most self-loving, organic and wildcrafted products to the women involved.

If you're apart of the Flower Child program, you can look forward to 2 handcrafted beauty and herbal healing products, sent to your door every month. Whether that's a Grounding Chaga Body Butter, or a Heart Opening Chakra Serum, every month's package is unique, and a total surprise! There are no two packages alike.

Therefore, every month, I get to daydream about different recipes and healing concepts, and then, make them a reality with herbs I've harvested from the wild. Raddest job ever. Previous concoctions include a Fireweed Facial Serum (great for inflammation and acne), a cleansing Aura Spray called Smudge in a Bottle and a Fifth Chakra Serum to encourage healthy communication.

Other than the wildcrafted herbs, I use organic oils and essential oils, spring water, and... crystals! Charging up the newly created potions under the full moons energy, along with crystals and prayer, is amazing, and a key part of the process. It's so satisfying to know I'm making sure the women I create for have the highest quality products available to them, products that won't cause any environmental pollution or gross chemical reactions.

This month, I thought I'd share some behind the scenes photos, so you could get a better idea of what the experience is all about!

September marks the final month of the first ever Flower Child - the next one starts in October, and is going to be full of surprises - including bi-weekly Sisterhood Calls with guest experts teaching us about moon cycles, and the Priestess archetype - I can't wait!!

If you'd like to get on the list for the next round (It's only 2 months long this time!) - send me an email at, with the subject 'Flower Child' - I'll open spots to those who email me before anyone else!

Fairy blessings!
xo Beth

Grounding Chaga Body Butters - Freshly Made and so in love!!

Fireweed and Horsetail are amazing skin remedies - I harvested these in the wild of Vancouver Island
I use glass cobalt blue bottles for the energetic power of the colour
Local beeswax melts to go into the facial serums and body butters

Best sea salt ever! 
Finished products wait to go to their new owners - Note the cute little crystal on the Wise Woman Toothpaste! :)

Monday, August 26, 2013

Your Soul Will Thank Her!

A couple of months ago, I really started to notice the language that was used in the music I listened to. While I loved the rhythm and the vocals of the music I played, I sadly observed that many of the lyrics said things like "I can't forgive you", "My heart's sorrow" etc. As much as I loved the beats, I knew the lyrics of the songs were affecting me, and my angels were pointing out that I needed to listen to higher vibrational tunes.

As my repertoire began changing over, my friend Natalia directed me to a group called the Nectarian Collective. As I was exploring their website, I was drawn to a certain musician called Sea Star. 

Her album, Sacred Red, is a pure manifestation of Spirit, Song, and Sea, with the most beautiful and wise lyrics I think I've ever heard. I've become so inspired by her simple melodies with profound vibrations, that I've started to do something I've always wanted to - songwrite! Though it's a slow process of getting through perceived blocks and fears, I know it's a path I'll continue on.

So I invite all my sacred soul sisters to listen to Sea Star's album here, and become more conscious of the words you listen to everyday. Do they align with who you want to be and how you want to feel?

So much love, and happy listening!
xo Beth

Sacred Red by Sea Star